Monthly Archives: October 2011

Bruised

Posted on October 31, 2011 by

I feel bruised inside.  That’s the best way I can describe it: a feeling of being emotionally bruised.  And I don’t know why. There’s a feeling of despondence, of loneliness, aloneness, and loss.  I keep on seeing ‘gray skies’ – … Continue reading →

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A Tad Topsy Turvy

Posted on October 30, 2011 by

As we look over the past week it’s all a dissociated whirl – even now it’ a problem focusing; we’ve been ‘all over the place’ – ranging from that discompassionate emotion and state of ‘non-being’ to fracturing, coming apart, and … Continue reading →

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Cruxes and Crossroads

Posted on October 26, 2011 by

We are on the crux of a decision that is a crossroad in our life – we can see that very clearly.  We having been ‘coming out’ more and more about “us” and our collective pasts over the years . … Continue reading →

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Random: 20242011:1929

Posted on October 24, 2011 by

Just so you don’t think ‘this’ is all we do: Last week: Killed a ‘coon.  By hand.  This is a vicious animal: raccoons.  Sure, they’re cute and cuddly – but not in the wild.  I had my first experience with … Continue reading →

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Action, Reaction: “You’re Nuts”

Posted on October 23, 2011 by

I don’t know how many times I’ve gotten into trouble for having the “wrong” reaction; that is to say I have gotten into some VERY serious trouble sometimes simply because I don’t react the same as a normal man. I … Continue reading →

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The Yoke of Shame

Posted on October 20, 2011 by

I’ve given over to calling it “The Yoke of Shame” – the burden that victims of sexual child abuse bear – and it was handed down to them by their abusers.  It was placed firmly around their neck the moment … Continue reading →

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Missing Time

Posted on October 18, 2011 by

It’s come more and more to our attention that we are missing some time.  Maybe even years.  This would explain some “distortions” in our timeline; our confusion sometimes about when what happened where . . . You see, this is … Continue reading →

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Rights

Posted on October 18, 2011 by

Ever since I was a little kid, the concept of “unfair” has always angered me, especially when the unfairness is the direct result of other human beings.  Life is unfair enough to everybody in one way or another – why … Continue reading →

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Don’t Make Me Mad: A Pedestrian View

Posted on October 14, 2011 by

Okay, that’s it.  I called the cops; the wife has called the cops – and yet the situation persists. Our road dumps out onto another road – a major “highway” by country standards – and the area we’re in has … Continue reading →

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DID and Me

Posted on October 13, 2011 by

Sam Ruck put out a good post the other day: “A Husband’s Definition of Dissociative Identity Disorder”.  For anyone who wants to gain some insight into someone with DID, his blog is an excellent resource.  And Sam’s blog has made me … Continue reading →

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