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The Human Guinea Pigs


My dad used us as guinea pigs, my brother and I.  He used a laboratory technique, maintaining one child as a control, and the other to experiment on.  But the fact is, he experimented on us both. I remember my … Continue reading

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DID and Me: Cause & Casualty


Why did I become DID – a disorder, diagnosis, or disease, depending on which way you look at it? Looking it all over and looking at the patterns of behavior, looking ‘inside’ at what I see, I can simply sum … Continue reading

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Department of Child Services (DEFACS) Sucks


I am really getting my craw filled with the Department of Child Services here in the Augusta Georgia / Thompson area.  Something is WRONG with these folks! I have a granddaughter.  She is the happiest child I know.  She’s bright … Continue reading

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Why Ask Why Again


Well, it happened. We finally made some progress on some things: resolving some issues regarding our emotions, why we feel some things – and feel some things we don’t like to feel, such as a hatred of love.  This does … Continue reading

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Hindsight is not always 20/20


Hindsight is not always 20/20. When you are examining yourself to try to find out what went wrong – where, how, why, in order to understand how it can affect you today – sometimes you have to stand away from … Continue reading

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Strange Daze Part II


We’ve been oddly silent on our blog for dayz and I think that deserves a bit of explanation.  Long story short, it involves our postings in the Little Shop of Horrors: The Groomed Child Rejected Part I,  Part II, and … Continue reading

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The Tip of the Iceberg


It’s funny how one thing; one thought, one remembrance can lead to a cascade of some others.  And that’s the way with us. You know how it is: you see a birthday cake and you remember a birthday you had. … Continue reading

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The Room.


Imagine a room.  It’s about ten by twelve feet square.  It’s a normal sort of bedroom – window on one side, double hung with curtains and a shade, and next to it, tucked into one corner, a massive desk sort … Continue reading

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Shaking the Shame of Being A Molested Child


Shaking the shame of having been a molested child is one of the hardest things do sometimes. To put things more succinctly: “Shaking the shame of having been a sexually used BOY is one of the hardest things to do.” … Continue reading

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Random Phrases


Phrases we’ve come up with through the years which have helped us.  Hopefully they can help some times.  Some you can just say with a wry grimace and a smile while you’re gritting your teeth at things . . . … Continue reading

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