The Masks of DID and Child Abuse

So what do you do to deal with shame?

You wear a mask.

For years I wore this:

OUR MASK OF SHAME

<- This is what YOU saw.  Calm, collected, cool . . . unemotional . . . untroubled.

But THIS is what was going on INSIDE:

 

The MASK OF DID 1997

Symbology Explained:

Note the DEMONS beating the children and men to construct the mask. THOSE DEMONS ARE THE SHAME SOCIETY BUILT.  Sorry Society; I know you have trouble stomaching that maybe you, too, as well as our abusers, are culprits in the destruction of a child’s soul, that and of a man as well.

The TRAIN contains YOU, Society, traveling at high speed (so you won’t have to SEE ME) towards the Emerald City where YOU all live.  I’m stuck out in this damn desert – building EYES THAT REFLECT WHAT I SEE: YOU!!! (And your damned shame.)

See the Storm in the Background?  That represents the storms in my head – oh, and by the way: see those little figures getting struck by lightning?  Those are the “souls” in me you ‘killed’ dead.

They were part of me, GD-it!  Luckily — like a Hollywood monster: nothing stays dead.  Like little freakin’ Zombies, (Children, too, LOL!) – they come diggin’ their way back out of their graves: and then they eat your brain.  (Gee, and you didn’t think I’d mention the mountains of hell, eh?  Or how about that blue blue sky where YOU’RE going.  Guess what: all I got is a dark pit full of … where all hope is lost . . . and I watch you go by, ignoring, and if I cry out for help, it’s: “F You.”

Yeah, I’m bitter.  But I’m better.  No thanks to you.   Get it together folks; it doesn’t have to be like this.

Somethings gotta change.  And I’m tired of being the one always making the changes.

Signing off: Me and the Soldiers; my boys and I, and a whole lot more.

Gotta protect them kids, ya know.  You aren’t. Damn you.

PS: And yes, we did the graphics, in case you’re wondering.  Thank you; rate if you like it, please.

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About jeffssong

JW is an adult childhood abuse survivor with DID*. He grew up in a violent family devoid of love and affection. He is a military brat and veteran. He no longer struggles with that past. In 1976 JW began writing "The Boy". It took 34 years to complete. It is currently on Kindle (http://www.amazon.com/dp/B004T3IVKK ), or if you prefer hard copy, on Amazon ( http://www.amazon.com/Boy-J-W/dp/1461022681). JW resides somewhere in the deep South. He is disabled and living with family. Note: Please feel free to take what you need; all is free to all. With that in mind, keep it that way to others. Thank you. We have 3 Blogs - One for our younger days, 0-10 (The Little Shop of Horrors); one for our Teen Alter and his 'friends' (also alters) with a lot of poetry; and finally "my" own, the Song of Life (current events and things)
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5 Responses to The Masks of DID and Child Abuse

  1. wow – this is an amazing description because it mirrors exactly my life. always being told I was the one with the problem, meanwhile, everyone inside of me was struggling to survive. You pegged it. You nailed it with this graphic art. I understand you 100,000 percent.

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  2. Reblogged this on Trauma and Dissociation and commented:
    Our academic website has artwork contributed by a number of different people, including The Mark of Dissociative Identity Disorder by Jeff Song.

    Here Jeff explains the meanings of all the difference components in his art, and how it relates to DID.

    This artwork is used on the page http://www.dissociative-identity-disorder.net/wiki/Trauma-dissociation

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  3. Pingback: “Oh, DID, that’s really rare, isn’t it?” | Trauma and Dissociation

  4. Absolutely fabulously done!!! Thank you for doing this.

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