A Note On Trauma Processing Using Journaling and/or Blogging Techniques:
Specifically for survivors of childhood sexual abuse and trauma induced in childhood. It may be of some interest to some therapists or counselors out there.
We have found it in our best interest, and in the interest of healing if a survivor, ‘revisiting’ their blog or journal entry (especially if it is a few months; if not years old) – reading it, and then posting their opinions about it is not the best thing. The opinions are already formed in that previous entry; there is too much chance the survivor will be told the same things he did again; therefore his opinions regarding those events ‘don’t matter’ in this day and age. The survivor may have moved on; found himself (or herself) in other place and state of mind.
Therefore it is important – and the best thing to do (in our humble and unprofessional opinion) – that the client ‘revisit the scene again’ in her or her own mind by journaling or writing about it again, anew and afresh, giving their new opinions about themselves – and the things they’ve went through – prior to reading their old entry. This gives them an uncontaminated state of mind. This allows them to look at their feelings now, and not ‘then’, when they first wrote about the thing, as well as finding new (and hopefully healing!) insights and perspectives on their own issues.
After having written their ‘new’ entry, they should revisit the old one and see what facts have changed, if any. If none have changed, this helps validate the client’s memories; if not, there may be more issues which need investigated.
This also allows them to re-examine their opinions and attitudes – comparing the “then” and “before” to the “here” and “now”. This frequently shows the client where they have made improvement – and where they need more help. It may also aid in identifying other issues needing addressed, and where those potential solutions to their further solution regarding healing lays.
Usually the client sees themselves as improved. They can see patterns of behavior and thinking changed, as well as emotional stability and improvement, which often leads to a greater sense of self love (especially important when dealing with one with alters); which often leads to a better sense of self-being and self-improvement, thereby empowering the client to begin to think more healing is even possible, using the powers of their own mind. This often aids in the client viewing themselves in a more positive note; seeing or sensing some value in himself (and his alters, if he has one (lol, just ONE, we are laughing and chuckling within) , and making them realize they have the power to do this thing: healing from within.
Warnings that it should take time: there is no forcing of things (otherwise you might have a panic-attack or anxiety ridden client on your hands; or especially one that is switching while you are trying to deal with them!). Things should come naturally, in the client’s own time – but not too fast, and not too slow. Clients will often stall if you let them; it is up to you to get them to ‘move on’ and ‘continue down that journey to healing. Just remember that they are seeing something you can’t see: storms ahead which can threaten their mind; and sense of self-being – or worse, turn someone suicidal. That is the worst thing of all. (We will make sure that won’t happen, won’t we? Crowd is nodding and smiling all around.)
End of “Professional Entry”, Beginning of another:
Addressing the Issues of DID: My Own Personal Issue:
In my specific own case, this means addressing my alters; their problems in ‘viewing it’ (meaning emotional issues and all) – and arranging things with them; making concessions as need be, should forgiveness become impossible. (We have 2 … no, more – some other alters are busy talking about it right now; minds in indecision about this thing we’re calling it ‘forgiveness and understanding. The teenage one for sure; the Religious Man (formed on our father figure; meaning the biological father of mine) balking sometimes (Jeez! You’re a Christ man! I am we are telling him! Forgive him his F’g sins, why don’t cha’! – he’s turning away angry and disgusted and we’re telling him he’s an F’ing hypocrite; which in fact and in real life, his Freakin’ Father is kind of and sort of.)
There ya go; you can kinda see its so: this next friggin’ issue is really bothering me some. Don’t expect me to get done with it soon. Part of processing is doing it soon; but recognizing that “these things come in their own time.” I don’t know about YOU guys (and guyettes, meaning you dear readers) – but for us MPD/DID kinda folks: there’s always things going on in the background; especially when the system gets goin’ (like a fine tuned engine I’m thinking it is: we’ve been over this kind of mountain before – and we survived the disclosure – and we’re gonna do it again – examining the thing: engine running LOUD, if you can picture what I mean.)
And here’s the thing. Instead of me just going ahead and posting my blog of this time by using the blog I had used some time ago, we’re going to be looking at this thing ‘afresh’ – knowing we’ve changed our mind on some things; looking on things a little bit closer, looking ‘within’ deeper into our souls … and guess what? Already we can see that bright bright but ooohh so tiny spark of light: like looking into the end of a white hot torch blazing through a hole in our mind: the ‘end’ of this disclosure
For the thing is: we’ve changed through the years; though not that many years have gone by (2? or 3? We’ll see again; just looked that damn thing up: blocking, that’s what that is: another part of my mind must’ve read.)
And now we’re gonna be lookin’ into the thing with compassion and love on our mind; guarding that inner child of mine; no one’s gonna be prosecuting him like we did before. We are gonna ‘sit down’ with love and understanding and guide this child and the other troubled parts of mine towards love and understanding; hopefully bringing them a little bit closer (I can feel in them, too – they are wanting this thing; loving each other – and yet: eyes hooded and distrusting; afraid each one is going to cause the other one pain.)
sighing again. It’s gonna be a fight to win; and I’m gonna win it for the all of me (speaking on behalf of M3 and Jeff our main friend; even the teenager likes him, even if he doesn’t like what he’s doin’ right now, my friend.