Stroking the Little Lizard’s Egosystem

My wife was talking and laughing about a little lizard we have out on the deck.  We have lots of lizards; but this one (Mister Stumpytail – for obvious reasons, LOL – he’s an American ‘false’ chameleon – symbols in that one, Sir!) – made her laugh.

(PS: The proper way to ‘read this crap’ <- Matthew speaking – is to “read outside the parenthesis – and then ‘read in’ (The parenthesis).  Might make more ‘sense’ to you standard sorta folks out there (who are, BTW, just as wonderful as me :D)

For on our deck we have a number of iron lizards – not little ones, but not big ones, either (not talking Komodo dragons here, folks <- okay, another symbol for what’s coming up; pay attention boys and girls! WE see symbols everywhere and in everything nowadays, LOL’ing!)

So this little lizard, he runs up to one of the iron ones (ten times his size!) – and struts and puffs his little ‘cheek’ (neck) pouches out – doing his “pushups” (a threatening gesture, Lizard style, I’m reckoning – LOL, trying to look TWICE as big as he really is!) – and challenges this “Iron Lizard”.

So it goes like this: lizard ‘attacks’ and ‘struts’ in front of this other lizard (the iron one.)  And NOW I’m talking about the lizard in YOUR brain: the one that makes you want to ‘fight’ and ‘do’ things … to the (perceived) ‘Iron Lizards’ around you.

He ‘attacks’ (not really – running up to this fellow – then stopping – puffs, does a few ‘hand-stands’ – then runs away – satisfied that he’s “won” – because that Iron Lizard?  He’s done nothing but STAND there – looking ‘away’ sometimes (Iron eyes are rolled back on the head) – NOT attacking – but not running away, either.

Just standing there.

And the little lizard thinks he’s won.

And well – that goes a lot for this ‘therapy’ system – and a “System for Dealing With Others” – reminding yourself that “they” (the ones trying to help you) should be like the “Iron Lizard” – neither attacking you nor running away (or appearing to attack you: see the ‘upraised eyes” sort of thing) – and sometimes YOU are (or need to be) the Iron Lizard: standing STILL and STRONG – quietly listening but making NO threatening movements; nothing to ‘scare’ him away (meaning nothing “threatening” in his or her eyes – which even a simple comment can be! – leading to fights and things).

You just stand there, ‘taking it’ – and looking coolly at the sky – letting it ‘roll over you’ – not FEELING their rage and anger …

and knowing they present “no threat” to YOU or your livelihood (meaning your happiness) – because you ‘don’t believe’ them (the ‘lies’ they are telling e.g. “you are worthless” and “you are no good”) – not being driven by that ‘social perception’ of yours (your own tiny lizard running around inside your brain) – and just being ‘happy within one’s self.’  And definitely not attacking!  – because (as you well know) – there’s nothing that would frighten the little lizard worse (meaning FIGHT or flight or flee syndrome – and we ALL want to fight anymore, right?) – than that big ol’ Lizard moving in on him sometime.

Eventually they’ll leave you alone.  Thinking “I’ve WON!”!!!

When actually you’ve been winning all along.

Something to think about.  We write in riddle, symbology and meaning – so think about it – and look “beyond” the words.

Your friends over in the nuthouse;

Jeff et all and Friends.

(PS: Just a “note” on this title to this article of mine et alls:  When we were talking to the wife we said (laughing!): “Hey!  We’re just stroking this little lizard’s egosystem” sorta meaning improvements to the ecosystem (we have a nature friendly back yard) … and it rang true – then this (all of the above) – came about.  Weird mind we got runnin’ here nowadays, huh????  LOL’ing going on while some are puzzled monkeys scratching their asses thinking it’s their head, LMAO!!!!! ROTF.)  See ya!  Until later!

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About jeffssong

JW is an adult childhood abuse survivor with DID*. He grew up in a violent family devoid of love and affection. He is a military brat and veteran. He no longer struggles with that past. In 1976 JW began writing "The Boy". It took 34 years to complete. It is currently on Kindle (http://www.amazon.com/dp/B004T3IVKK ), or if you prefer hard copy, on Amazon ( http://www.amazon.com/Boy-J-W/dp/1461022681). JW resides somewhere in the deep South. He is disabled and living with family. Note: Please feel free to take what you need; all is free to all. With that in mind, keep it that way to others. Thank you. We have 3 Blogs - One for our younger days, 0-10 (The Little Shop of Horrors); one for our Teen Alter and his 'friends' (also alters) with a lot of poetry; and finally "my" own, the Song of Life (current events and things)
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