Busy Avoiding

Well, I guess I can say we’ve been ‘busily avoiding things’ again by ducking and dodging into real life sort of things.  A lot of what’s been going on:

Just finished ‘publishing’ my book; hoping to ‘publish’, anyhow – depends how this last proof came out.  We’re gonna be seeing that thing in a few weeks at most, if not sooner than then.

Got the “Kindle” version updated from its “Draft Copy” to finalized version; it’s gonna be up for sale again in the next few days or so.  (If anyone wants the link; lemme know: we’ll be coming out with it later.)  For right now what remains to get done is updating the description and things (removing any references to ‘draft copy’ and ‘mechanical errors’ sort of thing).

Saw one of the g-sons yesterday; took care of him and all; had a good time – we both did; giving him an education beyond the ones they serve in the sticks; nothing to do with ball games; everything to do with the outdoors (LOL’ing; two environments: one where we saw deer running along the majestic and languid looking waters of the great S. River; the other wandering through downtown environments; pausing to eat lunch – both country swamp and big city in one day for this little Southern kid – and us, BTW!  Enjoyed the whole thing.)  Now he wants us to ‘watch’ him Monday … who can say ‘no’ to those big beautiful blue eyes?  Not this one, LOL’ing!  Tenderhearted kid; we’ve told him that one; and a good hearted one at that.  But typical boy: 90-to-nothing; start and stop kinda kid; talks so fast we can’t hardly understand him, LOL’ing!

And then there’s this thing:

We need to get to working on (and over and through) our ‘issues with Mikie’ sort of thing; the ones revolving around his loved one’s rejection sort of things; and the issues that came in the final betrayal.  Lots of things going on right there.  We can’t even read those posts again yet; we just wrote them; skip OVER when replying to comments . . . but reading?  Too hard as of yet. . . . and yet we know: we’re gonna have to sit down and READ them and go through them – all in one lump – one sour and distasteful kind of lump to some of us; a lump of sadness and regret to others; pain and a hurt sort of kid to one and all …

and then sit down and sort of analyze this thing; especially if we can’t FEEL this sort of thing (Matthew ‘stepping in’ to guard us kinda thing) – take it apart and find our own issues in our own lives – ones regarding love and some things … some hard ones to face; stomach, take down; sore and feel … jeez, just so much avoidance in that sort of thing ….

and so we’re supposed to go over to a friend’s house and counsel them (basically helping them along in their own lives – knowing we are now 2 days ‘behind’ seeing her ….)  knowing ‘more’ is coming …. giving us ‘no time’ to work on ‘this thing’ (meaning US and that sort of thing; anything like ‘therapy’ coming on) ..

and then that damned book proof will be in in the next few days and we’re gonna have to ‘look through’ that sort of thing (once again now; breathing slowly and deeply hating this thing) – for about the 34th time . . . only we want to hand it OFF to someone for their own reading – making sure we crossed all the lines; the “i’s” got dotted out; and the T’s have been written as much for their enjoyment as well as their own edification (simple as it seems, that one’s complicated . . . ever try writing …. jeeeez, LOL’ing.  Too many things.)

Anyway, that’s that and things for now.  Gotta get goin’.

More avoidance work to do.  (which, BTW, includes doing the housework or mowing the yard in this day sort of thing.)

LOL’ing!!  (waving g’bye!)


About jeffssong

JW is an adult childhood abuse survivor with DID*. He grew up in a violent family devoid of love and affection. He is a military brat and veteran. He no longer struggles with that past. In 1976 JW began writing "The Boy". It took 34 years to complete. It is currently on Kindle (http://www.amazon.com/dp/B004T3IVKK ), or if you prefer hard copy, on Amazon ( http://www.amazon.com/Boy-J-W/dp/1461022681). JW resides somewhere in the deep South. He is disabled and living with family. Note: Please feel free to take what you need; all is free to all. With that in mind, keep it that way to others. Thank you. We have 3 Blogs - One for our younger days, 0-10 (The Little Shop of Horrors); one for our Teen Alter and his 'friends' (also alters) with a lot of poetry; and finally "my" own, the Song of Life (current events and things)
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