Goodbye – for a While

We must leave tomorrow – leaving the North American continent and flying far South of here to rescue a man.

We shall be gone for a long while – three weeks – at which time we will return, bringing this man with us.

It’s all about family and friends, and helping someone.  It will cost us dearly in many ways – not just the money, but in emotional time ‘well spent’ in trying to correct this man’s behavior; pulling him out of drugs – saving him (we hope!) for his family.

It promises to be a trying time; an interesting time, and a time of triggers and emotions.

We were a meth addict once; shoving eight-balls in our veins.  Those temptations will be there, as well as demon cocaine.

“It’s a dangerous neighborhood,” we’ve been told (he’s told us) with murders, robbery, and drugs.  I’m going to be the only ‘white boy’ there – but we go unafraid.  We’ve been to foreign countries before and well know how to behave (the bumbling stupid goofy American who needs help at every turn).  We won’t be able to read the language; we can’t speak a word.

But we will be fine (or not; I don’t care.)  We are used to this thing: finding ourselves where we’ve never been before, sometimes in dangerous circumstance.

After all, we were in the Marines.  Plus we were born in a foreign land, and have spent many years overseas.

We know how to behave.

And we are into embracing cultures and things – loving to learn about mankind.  This one’s gonna be rough – too near the equator for my Southern tastes, and on an island besides.

The problem is: our internet connection is going to be weak; spotty at best.  We shall not be ‘here’ to communicate things; our problems, our tears, our insights.

WE are going to have to ‘divulge’.  That means (in professional shrink terms) we are going to have to make ourselves ‘vulnerable’ to him – something a pro won’t do.  We are going to have to avoid ‘transference’ – while working – and living with this man.

We will be in rainforests; we will be in mountains.  There is beach as well.  We are not going for those things; we are going to ‘save this man’ and experience some culture – living with and becoming ‘assimilated’ into this thing.

It’s the only way to survive – and we are a very good chameleon – it’s a skill which has served us our our lives.  We’re going to be needing that thing – as well as being very clever, our eyes wide open – and so, so much more.

We hope you are wishing us luck on this thing.

If not; then you can go here:

And you will find the book we’ve been writing (“The Boy“).  It should make for interesting reading – if you want the challenge; the excitement, the adventure.  A love story for all mankind.We plan on giving the proceeds to benefit children – preferably the abused ones.  We aren’t interested in the money anymore; that doesn’t mean a thing.

Those children, however, do.

If you buy the book we think you will find (if you LOOK and THINK real hard) – all the hidden symbols and things of which we’ve mentioned before.  Written for entertainment; in it we found our own souls.

Especially the two of them: Matthew and Little Mikie – for as we’ve said before – this April we found that this is the story of two of our SOULS – the TRUE story of their emotions; their spiritual and emotional journey – the “push” and “shove” and love …. God, the love …

We think you’ll be enjoying it.  And if not … well, let us know.  Chances are we’ll return your money.  Everyone has said it’s good (if not good, then great).  We’re going to be taking their word on it – and yours.  Feel free to leave a comment or two after you’ve read it – we always want to know more.

And prepare to be shaken.

Enough for now – we have packing to do.  We leave at 5 am. (Wed, June 22, 2011).  We are due back on July 14th – only to turn around and leave again two days later.  But that trip (the second one) will be to Charleston SC (IOP) …. for what will be a well deserved vacation.

We may be hurt at that time.  The mission ahead is most difficult – only a 10% chance of success.  Our bodies may be in danger … as well as stress on the mind.

Pray for us if you can.  But even better: Pray for HIM – this man we are going to be rescuing – him and his family.

For if we fail … they all will suffer.  A woman will lose her man; a child her father; and ourselves??

What matter.

Ourselves never mattered anyway.

Therefore: it is a worthy sacrifice – all those thousands of dollars and the pain.
If only to save a man.


About jeffssong

JW is an adult childhood abuse survivor with DID*. He grew up in a violent family devoid of love and affection. He is a military brat and veteran. He no longer struggles with that past. In 1976 JW began writing "The Boy". It took 34 years to complete. It is currently on Kindle ( ), or if you prefer hard copy, on Amazon ( JW resides somewhere in the deep South. He is disabled and living with family. Note: Please feel free to take what you need; all is free to all. With that in mind, keep it that way to others. Thank you. We have 3 Blogs - One for our younger days, 0-10 (The Little Shop of Horrors); one for our Teen Alter and his 'friends' (also alters) with a lot of poetry; and finally "my" own, the Song of Life (current events and things)
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2 Responses to Goodbye – for a While

  1. Michael says:

    I have a strong sense the drugs will not be an issue when you are gone. Not an advantage you can afford to give up. It will be when you come back that will be the issue.

    Journey on,



  2. Bongo says:

    we hope that this journey is a good one…..anything ..any attempt to help another is a blessing…we look forward to your return…..we miss your writings your words..grace and peace to you our friend….As always…XOXOXOXO


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