“One of the most important contributions of (veterans) was they refused to accept the diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia from VA or civilian doctors,” Jones said…
“Similar symptoms may have caused confusion”, Chapman says. “One of the potential diagnostic criteria for schizophrenia are hallucinations. A soldier’s description of flashbacks might have led a clinician to consider hallucinations, associated with schizophrenia. Similarly, when an individual is exhibiting strong hypervigilance, it might look like paranoia – particularly before PTSD was well-understood.”
Now – when I came back from Puerto Rico I had (and we had) concluded during the third day that we had PTSD from our Puerto Rican Adventure and had started taking ‘care’ by starting to take care of it: recognizing that things weren’t the threat they were; recognizing that I had undue ‘security concerns’ (not that I felt anyone was actually out to get me – just this one fellow, my family and member and friend from PR). I knew by day one that I was being unduly and symptomatically “paranoid” – you would be too, if you’d have had what happen to me happen to you.
But it goes without saying that I’ve been sorely misunderstood – by the medical professionals who were supposed to help me, to the family that has been confused and hurt by the medical professionals potentially illegal and wrongful (and “knee-jerk in my opinion) reaction in which they locked me up for …. well, being abused! (Quite frankly, and my own opinion.)
My own family doctor – an Army man himself who served his tours doing the Army Doctor thing – and who has known me for twenty-five years long … asked me when I came in where all those injuries came from – and I told him, being the honest former Marine and trusting soul that I am. I even had a netbook with those photos ON it just so he could see! And I told him about these threats to my life and children (meaning the man who had led to me being in this sort of condition in the first place) – and why I had purchased some guns – one each firearm, pistol: handgun – automatic: 9mm rounds – one for my wife, one for my daughter, one to keep at home, and a .380 to carry and keep for my own self protection. After all: this guy is a former Army Lt. Col. in Army Intelligence – he used to run some really wild kinds of missions down there in south A – some of them being run (if not all of them) by our kindly kind of folks over there in the CIA. He’s the kind of man who can do it (meaning offing my life, and that of my wife and daughter). So we were running ‘scared’ – he was due back ‘in-country’ in just a few days after all . . .
And then they go and lock me up. I’ve seen the papers. The diagnosis is mixed: one says “extreme paranoia”, another (and this appears to be the secretary’s handwriting) says “Psychotic Break” (that was on the Fax they sent to the cops to have us picked up). But the fact is: we weren’t paranoid at all! We were just taking precautions in case this kind of guy showed up! (Plus my wife needed a gun; she works with money – and some of the folks she works with show up sometimes needing some money . . .) And as for being psychotic – well, written right there in my medical record (apparently by the same secretary) “. . . story hard to believe.” Lock the ol’ boy up …
So anyway: there you go. A General Practitioner making a wrongful diagnosis (and not in his own handwriting, BTW!) – a secretary who thinks the man before her needs locked up (“he’s …. different! And he’s weird! And he’s telling us this strange story!!!”) … and from there on no one listened to a word I said.
I had told them from the very beginning – right there at the doctor’s office: “I know I’ve got a little PTSD going on (nervous laugh) – but I’m gonna get over it. I’ll be just fine.”
Later on I was adding: “If you will only let me go.” Which they didn’t. And THAT, my friends, has led to some VERY serious issues going on within me and with myself and with “our” views on society at large – and a whole lot of other things – especially regarding our system of health care and the entire STATE of looking at health care things at all – plus some of us agree:
It’s not ‘us’ that are ‘mad’. Society is … just look around you and you’ll see:
A system gone ‘insane’. (LOLaughter!)
Who has PTSD now? Me . . . or the entire being of society???
(After all: who was paranoid enough to lock me up for being this thing I am – and being so very PTSD at the time?)
It’s wonders I don’t have nightmares about it!
moving on ….. and you do, too. Go on out there and have yourself a life.
And make it a good one, at that. Let’s just hope it’s not as ‘damn interesting’ as mine has been! LOL!!!