So – You Wanna Believe in Conspiracy Theories

Okay, here goes.

If you’ve been following my blog at all, you know that it appears I was . . . well, I dunno.  Can’t call it an “abduction”, nor can I call it kidnapping; in a way you can’t say I wasn’t being held against my will (go to the end of this blog entry and you can see my point).  It appears to be some MKULTRA kinda bull.  At best I and we think it was some kind of MKULTRA adherents; perhaps just a single man – perhaps an entire neighborhood; maybe even an entire community of “them” (meaning either MKULTRA fans, cultists, a mix of the two, or something else entirely).

Or you can just say that my Puerto Rican friend was mad – and so was I.  Whatever …

But sh** continues to go on.

Did I ever mention the telephone call I got when I came home – about 3 or 4 days after – where someone had called me from a Texas phone number (361-397-3016), which Intelius reports as coming from a Cell phone which was at (lat. 28.67, long. -97.39) here in in Goliad, TX :
or, if you believe the white pages, it’s a landline from here and does not belong to a business.  Anyway, just as I’m walking past the phone in our house it rings; I let it ring one more time so that Caller ID can pick up the information, then “I’m” picking it up.

“This is a warning about your credit,” a male voice immediately says.  No waiting for me to say ‘hello’ (like the automated call systems ALL do nowadays.  “You have received multiple warnings.  This is your LAST warning.”  And hang up.

A few days later we’re going to “jail”, meaning the nuthouse.

Anyway . . . the sh** goes on ….

This last Saturday I go look in a utility bin I keep outside to store dog food and miscellaneous yard supplies in – and there’s this book staring up at me:
The book’s name is “Power”

Here’s what From Publishers Weekly has to say:  Greene and Elffers have created an heir to Machiavelli’s Prince, espousing principles such as, everyone wants more power; emotions, including love, are detrimental; deceit and manipulation are life’s paramount tools. Anyone striving for psychological health will be put off at the start, but the authors counter, saying “honesty is indeed a power strategy,” and “genuinely innocent people may still be playing for power.” Amoral or immoral, this compendium aims to guide those who embrace power as a ruthless game, and will entertain the rest. Elffers’s layout (he is identified as the co-conceiver and designer in the press release) is stylish, with short epigrams set in red at the margins. Each law, with such allusive titles as “Pose as a Friend, Work as a Spy,” “Get Others to Do the Work for You, But Always Take the Credit,” “Conceal Your Intentions,” is demonstrated in four ways?using it correctly, failing to use it, key aspects of the law and when not to use it. Illustrations are drawn from the courts of modern and ancient Europe, Africa and Asia, and devious strategies culled from well-known personae: Machiavelli, Talleyrand, Bismarck, Catherine the Great, Mao, Kissinger, Haile Selassie, Lola Montes and various con artists of our century. These historical escapades make enjoyable reading, yet by the book’s conclusion, some protagonists have appeared too many times and seem drained. Although gentler souls will find this book frightening, those whose moral compass is oriented solely to power will have a perfect vade mecum. BOMC and Money Book Club alternates. Author tour.
Copyright 1998 Reed Business Information, Inc.

Kind of a weird sort of thing to find in your dog food box, don’t cha’ think??  I know who it came from – a guy who very well may have, or had, an association with MKULTRA – and who has brought me other things (like a US Army War College Training Manual on dealing with World Terrorism) – which I then did something I’d never done before to (see THIS entry for more) . . . though after I’d done my work the manual mysteriously (and rapidly as well!) – disappeared …. though knocking my brains around a bit, I think one of we (little Mikie was in on this one?? Someone’s hiding ….) – gave it back to ‘him’, him being my dad.


Go figure.  We can’t … won’t … unwilling to do so or admit to ourselves that we might have been (could have been? were? are? still going?) in the MKULTRA plan, or one of its many derivatives.  Who knows.  We certainly don’t – and probably never won’t/did/do …

but if you wanna believe in conspiracy theories . . . I reckon “there’s one” ….

or you can like all of us are doing …. simply believing in coincidence … or the Hand of a Mighty Power . . .
or us just getting along ….

Whatever you want to believe … the choice is yours.



About jeffssong

JW is an adult childhood abuse survivor with DID*. He grew up in a violent family devoid of love and affection. He is a military brat and veteran. He no longer struggles with that past. In 1976 JW began writing "The Boy". It took 34 years to complete. It is currently on Kindle ( ), or if you prefer hard copy, on Amazon ( JW resides somewhere in the deep South. He is disabled and living with family. Note: Please feel free to take what you need; all is free to all. With that in mind, keep it that way to others. Thank you. We have 3 Blogs - One for our younger days, 0-10 (The Little Shop of Horrors); one for our Teen Alter and his 'friends' (also alters) with a lot of poetry; and finally "my" own, the Song of Life (current events and things)
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One Response to So – You Wanna Believe in Conspiracy Theories

  1. Michael says:

    I figure that the government sucks at everything the same. They are not that capable. I do not elevate them to a level of competence they do not have. Take their latest success in killing Bin Ladin. They had to make a hard landing. Ya mean they fucking crashed a helicopter don’t you? Oh about that hero Tillman. He was shot by mistake he died by an error., Bin Ladin’s compound was a fucking house with a wall around it.

    This is not to devalue the skills and heroic efforts or to portend I could do better. It is that those n the government at just humans although some need to believe they are protected by super beings and some need to thing they are super beings. Some needed to believe they could create super beings and they ran MKULRA. They in essence took the best of the best and fucked them up and to this day feel they are good human beings.

    The book is fucked up and leaving it in the cat food is fucked up.


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